04/06/2013

YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO

I watch you suffer.
Oh, how my heart aches.
I love you so much.
But you will not let me near.
If there were just something to say
   that would make it all better, I would.
You just keep pushing me away.
I see the fear and anger in your eyes.
I know I can never understand.
I know I have no right to tell you how
   to think or who you are.
I just want to reach out, but you just
   knock my hands away.
I just want to hold you.
You just turn away.
I will tell you one thing though.
You are not the only one suffering.
I suffer too, for I love you.
My child, you do not have to be alone.
But I leave the choice in your hands.
I know only you know what to do.


SCOTT DAVID BUCKLEY

Dedicated to all those who love us.

29/05/2013

SOMETHING TO SAY

This is not a lie.
This is my life.
This is not the end.
This is where I begin.
I just want to live.
I just want to be.
Can someone listen to me?
Instead of judging me.
I am not the problem.
But I can be the solution.
I will not sit in visible silence.
I have a voice and I will use it.
I am not someone to understand.
I am not just someone either.
I am a person.
I am real.
You cannot find me in a book.
You cannot find me in a talking box.
Just look at me.
Can you see the real me?
Do not tell me.
Just let me.
I am not separate from you.
I am not below you.
Nor am I above you.
When cut, I bleed.
Same as you.
I have feelings, they can be hurt.
Same as you.
I just want to say one thing.
Will you open your mind and let me?

SCOTT DAVID BUCKLEY

27/05/2013

MORE OR LESS THAN NOTHING

I have travelled far.
Just to end up in the middle of nowhere.
Nothing to see for miles around.
No land, no sea, no sky.
I choke on the invisible air.
It's hard to imagine.
What just is not there.
This is my journey of a thousand
   lifetimes.
I have taken with a thousand first
   steps.
I am not going anywhere.
I am even not going in circles.
One step forward, two steps back
   is a lie.
Truth is, no one goes anywhere.
What is anywhere anyway?
I thought I came so far.
All full of hope.
Now I am on empty.
And truth is, I have not come at all.
Every beginning has no ending.
Every ending has no beginning.
So here I am, nowhere.
Just where is nowhere?
How can it exist if it is not there?
Is life just another lie to be told?
Just a legend with no heroes.
Just a myth but with no tale.
Far is as near and near is as far.
Everything cancels everything out.
What does everything really mean?
There is no reason.
There is no design.
There is no purpose.
There is no why or how.
All is in vain.
All is vain.
Why am I writing this anyway?

SCOTT DAVID BUCKLEY

26/05/2013

HOME

Down through the ages.
I have been alone.
Left on my own.
And to my own devices.
I caused so much damage.
My anger fed my hate.
I just grew in suffering.
It was an acid.
Eating away at me.
Despair devoured me whole.
I continued on living this way.
It seemed like an eternity.
I knew someone was there.
But I had dug such a void between us.
I lived in an abyss.
I was just not listening.
I turned away.
Till I did not believe any more.
I was so confused.
Frustration came upon me.
As the confusion overcame me.
All hope was gone.
I felt so separated.
I had removed You from me.
Still I could feel someone.
A whisper in my ear.
My heart and soul could hear You.
i lost my confusion.
My tears felt warm on my face.
They fell just like a driving rain.
Down on my bloodied hands and knees.
I was soaked straight through.
I was saturated.
I felt so alive for the first time.
A light broke through all the layers of
   darkness.
I realized what I was missing.
I was missing.
And I was missing You.
The peace that I craved so sorely.
All the pieces began to fall into place.
The cracks remained.
They were my scars.
My beautiful scars.
The mess I was became one big
   beautiful mess.
They remind me of just how much I need
   You.
You love me as I am.
You love me such as I am.
You love who I am.
I do not want to wander away again.
For I love You so.
In pieces You made me whole.
You welcomed this prodigal son back
   home.
This is where I belong.
This is home.
This is where my heart is.
I am home.

SCOTT DAVID BUCKLEY

25/05/2013

THE LONG LOST ANCIENT LANGUAGE OF LOVE

So far from Eden.
So far from who we we are.
So far from who we could be.
Long forgotten.
The grey fog covers.
Babble, babble, babble.
We are the nameless generation.
Meant for so much.
Left to our own means.
Never reaching the end that would justify.
What have we done?
What have we become?
Raised on toys with brains.
Knowledge is manufactured.
Wisdom has become a lie.
Fact is fiction.
Fiction, the new religion.
Always wanting more.
Always wanting.
Desiring.
Desiring the untrammelled.
Staring at the stars.
Wanting to touch just one.
Wanting to go beyond.
Fearing the unknown.
Ever trying to find it.
Endlessly trying to surpass it.
Men in power.
Pretending they were a god.
Believing their own lies to be truth.
They think they are in control.
Fearing the uncontrollable.
We are all deceived.
We have wondered for way too long.
We have created our own god.
We pretend to worship it.
Our confessions are empty.
Said with fear.
The blind lead the blind.
Religion is god.
An idol looked to for saving.
Praying to long dead men.
Calling them "saints".
Calling them "fathers", "mother", and
   "sisters".
"Oh Rabbi, Rabbi, lead us home."
   We cry out in vain.
What of the Lamb that was slain?
Has all the blood run dry?
Have we killed God?
Calling one man god now.
Not seeing him for what he is.
A wolf in sheep's covering.
What have we done?
What have we become?
Every night we see anger.
Every night we see hate.
A box has become our saviour now.
Man is still creating their own towers
   of Babel.
Everyone wants to be the highest.
The New Covenant has grown stale.
The Old Covenant has returned.
God on his broken throne.
Dealing out judgement based on lies.
Darkness covers.
And we see it as light.
Evil has become holy.
The wicked have murdered faith, hope,
   and love.
Forgotten, forsaken the Way, the Truth,
   and the Life.
Separating from the One True God.
The One Most High.
Bowing before manufactured wooden
   christs.
Everything is hollow tradition.
Bowing down before symbols of evil 
   origin.
Oh, how far we have come.
Oh, how far we have wandered.
We are lost and do not even know it.
All we know is what we see.
Theory is reality.
Oh how great and wise we are.
Going forward when actually going 
   in reverse.
Ancient teaching put on shelves to gather
   dust.
Putting all trust in words many times 
   translated.
The ancient language of love has been lost
   in the translation.
We read all the books.
Calling them holy.
Thinking we are growing closer to God.
Wanting the Divine.
Accepting a lie instead.
Just stories from long ago.
We come together to make ourselves
   feel good.
Saying we love each other.
But, how can that be?
When we judge.
We are angry.
So we hate.
Thinking we are becoming holy.
Just because we "believe".
We "believe" in vain.
We use God's Name in vain.
Calling ourselves righteous.
Forgetting it is the sinner who is being 
   called.
The Chosen Few.
Our ways are not His ways.
We are not what He meant us to be.
We were meant for so much more.
We instead created sin.
We left Eden far behind.
Never giving it a single thought again.
We have forgotten.
We, who call ourselves gods.
But love is still speaking.
That still, small voice.
The long lost ancient language of love
   speaks.
Still cries, still screams.
Do not harbour silence in your hearts.
For silence kills and devours.
Listen, hear.
God still loves us all.
He is still speaking to us all.
So few hear.
Love is what we were meant for.
Hope still exists.
Faith is so much more than we think it is.
Listen, hear.
The long lost ancient language of love.
The religion of the false gods just babble.
Do not be deceived.
Truth is a lie.
Love is just a word, a feeling.
What do you see?
What do you hear?

SCOTT DAVID BUCKLEY