25/10/2013

HERE I AM

Here I am again.
I am always here.
Here I am still.
When I leave I always end up doing a roundabout.
Right back to here.
Always here.
Feels so familiar.
Almost like home.
But it seems like I am in a big empty house.
So cold and dark.
Alone.
Huddled in one corner.
Here I am.
Feeling so afraid.
I hate myself for always coming here.
Why do I feel so drawn to here?
Here there is nothing.
Here is nothing.
And that's how I feel here.
I'm right here.
Here.

SCOTT DAVID BUCKLEY

4 comments:

  1. i feel traped.cry at night from panic and my epilepsy.i am in a wheelchair/seizres are rectroactive.i love chrst.

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    1. I can emphasize with you somewhat Chris. I too experience anxiety at night, and quite often feel overwhelmed. That's when the emotions start sometimes. But at the same time I feel my Christ's presence and His embrace, bring comfort and soothing.

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  2. wow that is deep, i can relate to that feeling, never give up hope...

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  3. Thank you Karen, I've always loved that name. When I originally wrote the description I put this as about man in general making the same mistakes continually. But, later realized that was a little incorrect. It's really based on how "I AM" always repeating mistakes and can never seem to learn.

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