I try to run from you.
To get away from you.
I try to hide myself.
And yet, you always find me out.
Wherever I go you're there as well.
Always right behind me.
I can always feel you breathing down my neck.
There is no escape from you.
You know my every move.
You are able to guess my next move even
   before I make it.
You know me so well.
You are me.
I am you.
That is why you are always able to get inside my 
How you are able to get right to the very core 
   of who I am.
You are trying to destroy me.
You are trying to kill me.
You want my blood shed at my own hands.
You will never stop till your means has reached 
   an end.
Why do you hate me so much?
Why have you caused me so much harm?
If I die you die too.
Is that what you want?
Just to be rid of me you are willing to make 
   the sacrifice.
But,  I will not let you.
I know you just as well as you know me.
You forgot that didn't you?
Go ahead and bend me but you will never break
I am stronger than you think.
I am in control.
I make the choices and the decisions.
I know what is better for me than you do.
You may always be with me.
You may always be able to get to me.
I will never be rid of you, but at the same time,
   you will never be rid of me.
I am at war with myself.
I bitter battle till the end.
But, I know who I really am.
And I am not afraid of myself.
Wherever I go I will always expect you 
   to be there as well.
Remember this: I am not ready to die.
Not just yet, not ever!
So, here we both are.
Both stubbornly holding our ground.
Neither is willing to back away 
   or back down.
This is my life.
This is your life.
Entrenched, fighting in a stalemate.



  1. There is no battle. You are lonely and sometimes confused. We all have times of feeling like that and yet, we are so blessed. We live in wonderful countries, and have the freedom to be who we want to be, We live in a wonderful world and planet.... hug yourself and feel worthy, God loves you. Blessings from Australia

  2. Anonymous12/4/13 15:14

    I love how you express your feelings through your work. It is an amazing thing to be able to still have to motivation when you are feeling so low.

  3. Anonymous12/4/13 20:22

    This is simply Amazing and Good for you to keep on Going..

  4. wow....
    This is an amazing piece of writing from a deep place inside you, when I write from this spot I call it words from my inner whisper :)
    Just stumbled across your page, I look forward to reading more of your wordage, never stop letting it out...


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