SOMEONE STOP THE WORLD I WANT TO GET OFF

I Close my eyes to the world.

But it never goes anywhere.

Always pushing down on me.

Always crushing me and my hopes.

I wish I could make it all go away.

I wish I could figure all this out.

But I'm never able to.

I am never able to see my way through 

  the rain.

I always get lost in the storms.

I can never get ahead.

I am always held back.

Or is it pushed back?

It doesn't matter.

It's all the same in the end.

I'm always left feeling empty, lost and alone.

I try to tell myself it will all be okay.

Knowing full well that it's not.

These are just some of the lies that I try to 

  pass off as truth.

The sad realization is that I never was okay.

And I probably never will be.

Why even bother?

Why even try?

All those years that I wasted.

All those I pushed away.

It's no wonder I am the way I am.

At least not to me.

And I'm the one I have to live with.

I know I'll never get it right.

Not by myself.

Not on my own.

I'm just not that strong.

I know I will need some help to get through

  all this.

But everyone lies.

Everyone lets me down sooner or later.

So here I am.

Alone with myself.

As I always seem to be.

I wonder, where did I go?

How did I lose myself somewhere along 

  the way?

Where did I go wrong?

Will I ever figure this out?

No one knows.

I sure don't!

Someone please stop the world.

I want to get off.

SCOTT DAVID BUCKLEY-(08/08/2012)