04/04/2013

STILL

I still hear your voice when it's real quiet.
I still sense your presence when I am all alone.
I still remember you when I stop to wonder.
I still see you when I did not see you any more.
I still here your full laugh whenever I laugh.
I still smell that burning smell whenever you 
   "cooked".
I still hear the fire alarm sounding with joy
    every time you did.
I still feel you here in me when I feel lonely
   and afraid.

SCOTT DAVID BUCKLEY-(04/04/2013)
    

9 comments:

  1. DEDICATED TO A MAN THE WORLD DID NOT KNOW, BUT I DID. A MAN WITH A HEART BIGGER THAN ALL OF THE UNIVERSE. A MAN WITH THAT HEART SOUGHT AFTER THE VERY HEART OF GOD. I DEDICATE THIS HUMBLE POEM TO THAT MAN, MY FATHER;
    JOHN DAVID BUCKLEY.
    (08/06/1940-27/10/2008)
    HERE'S TO SEEING YOU AGAIN, DAD, IN ETERNITY WITH OUR GLORIOUS HEAVENLY FATHER AND OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR JESUS CHRIST. WON'T THAT JUST BE THE BEST OF THE BEST OD DAYS?!!!

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  2. What a blessing to be able to say that about your earthly father. Sounds like he had a lot to do with the type of compassionate person you are today.

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    1. I like to say I am 50% mt mother & 50% my father.
      To be honest there was a time in my early teens that I hated my father. Our relationship over the years had often been an unhealthy and poisonous one. When I was a child he physically abused me. Which I still bear faint physical scars on my butt and the scars on my heart and soul. It a very long time to come to a place where I could forgive and love my father again, too bad it wasn't till after his passing that that happened. But, all of this doesn't matter to me any more, I choose to look on the pleasant memories of him. That was when he was really who he was a very loving, giving and compassionate man. I think the dark times were intensified by him having undiagnosed mental illnesses in his early twenties and finally diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder which he suffered with the last 20 years, give or take, of his life. And me having my own undiagnosed mental illnesses for the entirety of my adult life, then finally being diagnosed with Borderline personality Disorder, Bi Polar (II) Affective Disorder, ADHD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and finally Social Anxiety Disorder.
      So, we both had huge impacts on each others' life, and I was greatly affected with his passing, which I still haven't come to terms completely yet. I have already gone grief counselling back Nov. of 2008 and have plans of hooking up with them again when I'm ready.

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  3. I love it:) You may enjoy my poetry blog also http://anonymouspreach.blogspot.co.uk/, if you want... Just one suggestion, the font is quite hard to read, it may just be me, but it may be easier for people to read a more accessible font. Keep up the great poems!

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    1. Thank you Rayona, I will check your blog out. I'm pretty good at reading most fonts.

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