It's never alright.
It's never okay.
So DO NOT tell me it is!
Do not give me hope when you have none.
I will not be lied to.
As you always have.
You have turned my life into nothing but lies.
Go on, leave!
I do not need you here.
I do not need you, period!
I am tired of everyone being careful around me.
It's not like I am going to break down if you do not.
I can see right through it all.
And I would rather be alone than to have to live with that.
You might as well slap me across my fucking face.
I know you just do not know.
I know you just do not understand.
I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU!!!
That's your problem not mine.
Leave me alone.
You do not know me.
So I do not know you.
Deep down I do not feel I want to.
No, I'm not okay!
And I am not okay with that!
SCOTT DAVID BUCKLEY
EPISODE II: YOU CAN NEVER GO BACK TO OKAY
I tell you the truth.
I will never go back to okay.
I do not know if I ever will.
Or if it really exists
I do know my mind is fragmented.
It's broken down beyond repair.
It cannot be replaced.
No brain transplants have ever been done.
I have accepted the truth that I am sick.
There is no cure for me.
No help to seek.
All therapies and drugs are lies.
And I do NOT give a fuck any more!
I have given up on hope.
It's gotten me nowhere.
I keep reversing.
Losing myself deep within.
I am told I am introspective.
So what!
What good does that do for me?
None, that's what!
I go nowhere.
Like a wagon with a broken wheel mired down in the mud.
But all this is of no consequence.
Nothing matters any more.
Fuck it all, I do not understand a single thing!
Why do I have to accept it?
Can you tell me?
No, you CANNOT!!!
So just shut the fuck up!
And while you're at it, Fuck you!
SCOTT DAVID BUCKLEY
I hope I have not offended any one, then again maybe it's a good thing that I offended you.
ReplyDeleteMaybe you will take more notice of the subject of mental health and illnesses.
The arrogance and ignorance must be ended and thus bringing the end to the stigma surrounding mental illnesses.
I find that those who are offended by a certain subject talk more about it, whether it's good or bad.
It's generating discussion, and that's a good thing.
So go ahead, be offended by what I wrote, but just keep in mind why I wrote these poems, if you can.