I AM YOU, YOU ARE ME (STALEMATE)

I try to run from you.
To get away from you.
I try to hide myself.
And yet, you always find me out.
Wherever I go you're there as well.
Always right behind me.
I can always feel you breathing down my neck.
There is no escape from you.
You know my every move.
You are able to guess my next move even
   before I make it.
You know me so well.
You are me.
I am you.
That is why you are always able to get inside my 
   mind.
How you are able to get right to the very core 
   of who I am.
You are trying to destroy me.
You are trying to kill me.
You want my blood shed at my own hands.
You will never stop till your means has reached 
   an end.
Why do you hate me so much?
Why have you caused me so much harm?
If I die you die too.
Is that what you want?
Just to be rid of me you are willing to make 
   the sacrifice.
But,  I will not let you.
I know you just as well as you know me.
You forgot that didn't you?
Go ahead and bend me but you will never break
   me.
I am stronger than you think.
I am in control.
I make the choices and the decisions.
I know what is better for me than you do.
You may always be with me.
You may always be able to get to me.
I will never be rid of you, but at the same time,
   you will never be rid of me.
I am at war with myself.
I bitter battle till the end.
But, I know who I really am.
And I am not afraid of myself.
Wherever I go I will always expect you 
   to be there as well.
Remember this: I am not ready to die.
Not just yet, not ever!
So, here we both are.
Both stubbornly holding our ground.
Neither is willing to back away 
   or back down.
This is my life.
This is your life.
Entrenched, fighting in a stalemate.

SCOTT DAVID BUCKLEY-(11/04/2013)